Evie is now a year old, fourteen months TODAY, and I am beginning to see through the fog of the past couple of years. My pregnancy with her was a hard one. Of course, there are those who have much harder ones than mine, but compared to my other two, hers was a doozy. I was so uncomfortable and sick to my stomach for the entire pregnancy. Then she was born, and we entered into the twilight zone that is the first year with a baby. On top of that, the particular position that Scott had at Home Depot meant that he was working ALL OF THE TIME. He got home late, and when he did get home, he got his lap top out and worked some more, and we felt like we couldn't ever really get to him. But now, praise the Lord, he is two weeks into a new job that is so much CLOSER to home, and he has much more normal hours, and we are so very thankful. We are also so very thankful for his time at Home Depot. It was a good company, a good job, and it will always be a reminder of how God stepped into what felt like a hopeless situation and placed our feet on solid ground. And I am thankful that Scott is such a hard worker and that he threw himself into that job and pursued excellence there in that position, BUT, I feel such relief with this new job that he has. We all do. In fact, just last week, after several days of Scott being home by six, John said, "mom, do you promise that daddy will always keep THIS job." Bless him, he went to bed many nights this past year without seeing Scott. (I realize that is the norm for so many families who go for months at a time without seeing their husband/father at all, but we are still thankful to see Scott on a more regular basis!). This blog has always been a place where I could record the tangible ways that God provides for our family. Scott's new job is the latest in that obvious provision. I can't stop praising God for it.
All of that to say, I have been living in survival mode--somewhat out of necessity, and I am ready to move out of that frame of mind. We are two weeks into this school semester (we have spent these two weeks sick, so it hasn't been a great start), and I am thinking through a better system for our day. School has to be a priority, obviously, because I am always aware that Ada is in SECOND GRADE, and sometimes I get that same feeling--like that dream that everyone has, where I am in college and it is finals week and I realize that I haven't been to class all semester!--well, I get that feeling sometimes about Ada. As if she was supposed to start school two years ago, and we didn't start. Really, I know that she is fine, but sometimes it is overwhelming that the responsibility of her education is ALL MINE. I want to make sure that I am being a good steward of these years and this choice to educate my children at home. I want to make the most of it.
I am hoping--hoping being the important word--that I can start using this blog as a place to reflect and evaluate what is and is not working in our day to day life. I crave an orderly home, and right now, it is more fly by the seat of our pants. Some of that is inevitable during this season of life, but I want to be intentional in trying to find possible solutions for the chaos.
We'll see. Who knows when I will be back to this online journal of mine. But my hope, and my plan, is that I will return soon.