Friday, March 23, 2012

Refocused

Obviously, the homeschool conference is over, and I am back into the thick of parenting, but I am back with new energy and resolve.

Practically speaking, I left encouraged to "just calm down," with Ada's "schooling."  Right now, it's all about reading lots of books together and playing lots and counting things in the context of day-to-day.  So, that's good. 

But, big picture speaking?  I am reminded that parenthood is a privilege.  It's an honor.  Thank you, Lord, that I get to be a mother.  I have been struggling the past few months with feeling discontent with this life.  Feeling bogged down in laundry and clutter and so. much. discipline.  This past weekend, though, I was reminded of the beauty and the kingdom building that comes in all of those things.  In the nightly family dinners that involve much reminders to, "sit on your bottom," and, "no, you can't be excused until you eat three more bites," and even my children seeing me perform the daily grind.  They are learning perseverance and hard work.  This is character building.  I think to myself in the midst of the toy clutter, these are the front lines of ministry--these little children who will grow into men and women.  And I am praying they will be men and women who want to know God and make Him known, and that is why I am doing this.  Of course it's hard.  It's so stinking hard.  But there is a reason that we keep steadily plodding along, that one day they will raise children to know him and make him known, and so on and so on for generations to come.  That is what this daily grind is about, really. 

And by the way, I do love that spring is here.  But I do not love the pollen that comes with it.  However, who can resist this beautiful weather?  So, I just sneezed my way through a walk today, and I suppose I will do the same thing tomorrow.






p.s. I actually wrote this on Wednesday, I think.  And now it is Friday, and I am surrendering to the pollen and no longer willing to go outside in it.  I feel like I am having an allergic reaction to the air, so as beautiful as the weather may be, I can't deal with it and maintain my sanity.  

3 comments:

Katherine said...

I'm so glad you benefitted so much from the conference. I'm working through the pollen too! I can't take the same allergy meds right now with the pregnancy. I'm praying for LOTS of rain in the next couple of days...maybe that would help. :)

Mary Ann said...

Wonderful pictures.

Esther Bratton said...

I have not written a blog nor read one in quite some time but as always yours is so refreshing. Your honesty and heart for Christ always inspire me... You and Ann always inspire me! Just last night Leslie said at Bible Study "we need to make sure we invest our time in things that are eternal and people are an eternal investment." it was a great reminder that our relationships with our children may not always seem like a glamorous calling but of the utmost importance in God's eyes.