May I confess something.
I am experiencing a bit of blog reading burn out. Or, to be more clear, I am feeling overwhelmed by all of the blogs that I read.
Let me explain.
My reader is full of several types of blogs--home design, fashion, fashion on a budget, home design on a budget, motherhood, homeschooling, biblical womanhood, couponing, eating real food...you get the drift. And then there are the blogs of friends, which I am not burned out on, because those feel like getting really fun e-mails everyday.
Well, at the end of the day, when I sit down to catch up on all of these blogs, I begin to hear these voices in my head--everyone has cuter houses than you, cuter clothes than you, cleaner houses than you, more nutritional menus, more money saved, etc. etc. etc. And I begin to look around at my tiny little attempt to get it all done as a stay-at-home mom, and I even like to think, get it done well, and I begin to feel like a failure.
Lies. Lies. Lies.
Some times--lots of times, even-- all of those blogs encourage me, but on a down day, on a day when the house seems particularly messy or Ada seems particularly disobedient or when we had frozen pizza for dinner and we went over budget at the grocery store, the blogs seem to magnify my shortcomings. Can anyone relate?
Today is one of those days, so I think tomorrow, and the rest of this night, I am going to walk away from the blog reading for a while. Take an accurate look at what I need to work on around here, and get to it without comparing. (Which by the way, I don't think any of those blogs are intending to do that--this is simply my sin rising to the surface!!!)
And, before I typed all of this, I also called my mom for a little pep talk, and it helped. She reminded me that I am not the only person in the world with a messy house. (Earlier today, I had convinced myself that I was). This blog world is a bit of a double edged sword. I love blogging because it makes me feel so much less isolated, but at the same time, it gives my sin of comparison more opportunity to rise to the surface!!
Oh Lord, give me grace and mercy. Speak truth to me!!