I have had an emotionally hard day. Just being honest, I basically am tired of life feeling hard. (I say feeling because I know that my life really isn't hard). I told the Lord tonight that I am ready for some relief, for this hard season to end. I am done. As if it's up to me.
And then, I had to do my nightly prayer at Ada's bed time. It was hard for me to even know what to pray because all I could think to pray was, get us out of this situation. So, instead, I reminded the Lord that he promises that he will be my strength, and I needed that strength tonight.
Then, I came downstairs, the kids in bed, and I pulled up my google reader. I found this article on the GirlTalk blog, and I decided to click on the link to read the entire article.
It was so worth it. The words of this article gave me the strength I needed to keep on keeping on.
And it's weird because my "down" day wasn't about motherhood exactly, but more about the circumstances in which I am having to mother. But still, the idea of laying down all of my ideas about my life really hit home. I have been fighting the Lord all day because I don't want to lay down my life. But that's exactly what the gospel commands us to do.
It's crazy how the truth of who God is always brings peace. Always.