I have had a hard few days. Just believing lies and such and sinking into my melancholy state of mind;)
But tonight, in an effort to combat those lies with TRUTH!!! I turned to God's word. As I have mentioned before, because I have been blessed (cursed?) with crazy emotions, I strongly believe that truth and emotion are two separate things, and tonight I needed a good dose of truth.
I opened to 2 Samuel to read the words of David who is praising God for delivering him from his enemies (those pesky Giants that kept wanting to kill him, I suppose). Though I have no true giants facing me tonight, often times my emotions can seem a bit giant, looming over me, crippling me, so I find great comfort in David's words.
The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer,
my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge,
my shield, and the horn of my salvation,
my stronghold and my refuge,
my savior, you save me from violence.
I call upon the Lord who is worthy to be praised,
and I am saved from my enemies...
In my distress I called upon the Lord;
to my God I called.
From his temple he heard my voice,
and my cry came to his ears.
Then the earth reeled and rocked;
the foundations of the heavens trembled
and quaked, because he was angry.
Smoke went up from his nostrils,
and devouring fire from his mouth;
glowing coals flamed forth from him...
He sent from on high, he took me;
he drew me out of many waters.
He rescued me from my strong enemy,
from those who hated me,
for they were too mighty for me.
They confronted me in the day of calamity,
but the Lord was my support.
He brought me out into a broad place;
he rescued me, because he delighted in me.
2nd Samuel 22: 2-4, 7-9, 17-20
I love this image. I can see a picture of myself drowning in lies and emotions, arms flailing about, hoping for someone to take notice and rescue me. And here is this idea that not only does God take notice, but he is so angry that these lies would be fed to me that the earth quakes and the heavens shake and fire shoots out of his mouth. That is a picture of a mighty God, is it not? And the best part, he comes swooping down to rescue me. And why does he come swooping down to rescue me from these enemies (lies) that are too mighty for me, because he delights in me. He delights in these emotions that He created. Now that is a truth worth sitting in and meditating on and clinging to with all my might. I am so thankful that I know Him and that He calls me his own. There is such hope in that. Such LIFE.